Wednesday, September 10, 2008
revelation : time for a change
Why is it that we sometimes put a ton of pressure on ourselves? I don't know... but I do it all the time. I think because I like things "just so." I've always been that way. Even my first grade teacher wrote that in my report card comments, "showing signs of perfection." I don't necessarily like that comment either, because perfection is a tough act to lead! Although, I have found that throughout my life I put an enormous amount of pressure on not only myself but others around me. That really isn't fair or nice. No more! I'm done with that. It just ends up making you have stomach aches. From now on... my life & creative time is going to be all fun & happiness. If it's not fun or doesn't make me happy, I'm not doing it. (And I'm probably going to have to remind myself of this from time to time as well.) If it starts to feel like work, I'm moving on. Life is too short and time is too precious -- to not be happy & doing what I want. I so wanted to have all of this work done by the end of summer to so that I could launch my shop before the holidays, but I'm not sure that's going to happen. If it does, fantastic, if it doesn't it it will be something nice when it does finally come around.
I'm going to stop saying "yes" to things I do not want to do. I'm tired of feeling guilty if the carpet doesn't get vacuumed, or if the living room doesn't get dusted or if there's doggy nose prints that need cleaned off the glass door & windows. Who cares anyway... If people are going to judge us by doggy nose prints on our front windows, then let them judge. (Mind you, these are all the silly things that I let build up -- I do this stuff to myself!)
I am however, going to work on organizing the oz household. We have too much crap that we either don't use, doesn't fit and forgot that we had... and the hubby agrees. So, we're going to get rid of all the clutter! I read that clutter brings stress, and my basement & closets are a stress-pool! I'm going to start from one end of the house to the other and make a big heap. So... maybe we'll even have a garage sale and if not, we'll donate to a charity.